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Mind & Heart of Beejuicy
Leos born on August 17 possess enormous spiritual power. They are highly focused and always follow their own paths. They are seldom influenced by trends, yet they may secretly ally themselves with the comfort of the status quo. Although personable, they have an aloof quality. They appear steady and unflappable to others, but there are times when emotions get the better of them and their logic is useless.
Friends and Lovers
August 17 individuals are extremely loyal to their friends. They don’t believe in superficial friendships. In love and romance, these people don’t just want a love affair, they want to find a soul mate.
Children and Family
August 17 folks are often the black sheep of their family. They may rebel against the family’s religious background or social status, creating a schism that can last for many years. Although they do not have the proper temperament for parenthood, they can easily make some emotional adjustments if they have children.
Health
August 17 people have a problem handling stress, which can affect their health. Because they always like to feel that they are in control, they may not be able to admit that they have this problem. Learning to relax can be a difficult proposition for them.
Career and Finances
These people have a loner mentality and enjoy working with as little supervision as possible. They make excellent researchers, especially in science or history. They have some karmic lessons to learn regarding money. These may be manifested through periods when they have little money, followed by financial success.
Dreams and Goals
August 17 natives are extremely disciplined and can call upon great reserves of emotional and spiritual energy to sustain them. They have little interest in fame and fortune. They want to do their best at their job, in their relationships, and in their unending search for self-understanding.
Shit is about to hit the fan…of course my hunny and I reconciled, I can’t help it I’m in love and many times what I think makes outsiders not fond of relationships is how they involve others and I made the biggest mistake of always discussing our relationship with others when I really shouldn’t have. I love Sonny period point blank…I know he isn’t sleeping with Precious and he made a good point, she knows that I am on his FB when he isn’t around or hell even when he is and I let her get to me. I am the main woman in his life but was he wrong for what he did hell yes he is should I be mad at him for what he did hell yes…my mom is upset because she feels like he walks all over me it isn’t true…in every relationship there are ups and downs and we go through a lot of them there are many days when I feel like I want to get up and walk away from him but I don’t because why we’re fighting could be so much worse and cause so much more pain than what I think is happening. Sonny and I have been to hell and back but if I keep showing that I am the weaker woman she will always look much better and come out on top…I trust Sonny wholeheartedly and I know that he will not do anything to jeopardize losing me from the first time when things went bad my mom and her boyfriend MADE me get rid of my man and I was pissed, hurt and upset…I feel like just like she has her situations going on with her men she makes the choices of whether they stay or go and I feel that since I pay some kind of rent here I should be able to have control of what my relationship is but of course it isn’t going to work that way. My mom has to be a dictator and I feel like her boyfriend is playing a part in trying to sabotage us as well…regardless of whatever happens she will never let him go…I have to move soon very very soon…he smokes cigarettes in the house and has me in here fuckin chokin but does she say anything? Hell no he can do what he wants because she wants him to be happy and if I were to say oh I don’t want him here she would look at me stupid and ask me when am I leaving…but I know that once my hunny leaves tomorrow he will never be here again and so that means grind time is coming and operation move up out is in full effect…I’m glad my babe is going to start back doing his moving job with Dominic even though he’s a snake in the grass we gotta get this extra paper real quick…I already know that this conversation with my mom is about to get ugly she is upset and raging with fire but I have to breathe and take it for what it is…
U put so much into sumbody for them to play you like a fuckin fool…fuck u and that bitch ur where u want to be so keep yo black ass there wit that broke bitch dnt ever call me again
Ugh this shit is starting to piss me all the way off! This raggedy ass bitch wanna start callin at 6:30am…then text at 9:30 and when i simply asked her y she can’t relay the same message? she wanna call and start flashin…and im like forreal? so all i say is why can’t do the same when i ask…she flipped the fuck out and it went from a question to everything she apparently jealous of…so she starts callin back to back to back to back and leaves 6 voicemail messages…sayin she gonna beat me up, stomp on my stomach and kill my unborn child, slap the fuck out of my son cuz he hella ugly, if we gonna share the dick let’s do it right cuz he aint about shit but fuckin and some head, and she know where I work so she comin to my job on monday…and i’m like why do it have to come to this? if i wanted to i could be a real bitch go to the courthouse and get a restraining order or worse get u put in jail…but Im not gonna even do anything to jeopardize the well being of the children…now he mad at me but i havent even went off all like that i been tryn to move on and move forward past all this shit but if all my man is hearing while he over there WITH HIS KIDS “imma beat that bitch ass” “y u take up for that bitch” “she a nothin ass bitch” and the list goes on…I can understand y he mad but i stopped answering the phone and been tryn to let him deal with it…but she need to realize that I am going to fight for my man and if it takes me not saying shit and keeping the fuck quiet i will because i want him to continue to see for himself that the entire problem is her and not me…i have been trying to do nothing but let this shit go and move forward because that rough patch we went through was nothing nice and now we are getting back to that happy place we shared at first and i really have to show him that i have moved forward and i am done worrying about her because she truly isn’t a factor in my life at all…
So true I think this is what really messed me up in the beginning…and I have to realize my relationship will not always be like that but its a little better than most I know
(Source: teachingliteracy, via fourgetmenot)
Man these past few weeks have been filled with ups downs and round and round…I have gone above and beyond to be the best woman possible but she still keeps getting into his head making it seem like I’m the problem…I am so nervous that he will revert back to his old ways and go back to trying to have his cake and eat it too…but if he does I have assured him that there is no get back…if u go back to a nothin ass no-good ass bitch that slept with ur homie, bashed u on FB in front of everybody, bashes u when shit doesnt go her way…but then wants to be all in ur inbox saying I love u I miss u I’m sorry I was mad u knw I care about u…and then when she dnt get her way u go back to bein all these bitches and so on…I jus dnt get it…I am kept and content in this relationship but I will not be played and I will be a main/side chick either its us or not…i have done my duty i have been the best girlfriend that i could possibly be showing you that i am in it to win it…we dont argue anymore i try to go with flow and have trust but deep inside i just wait for that call that says im not comin im spending the night…and thats when all hell will break loose around this gthang…because i will be soooo done its not funny! i will not let u think u can hurt me and keep shit lit like its coo if u wanna marry me and be with me then dnt jeopardize a good thing for a hoe ass nothin ass bitch!
Pregnancy is supposed to be a joyous thing full of happiness this has been the worse time in my life…I feel like I dnt matter I ain’t shit my daughter isn’t loved by her daddy his only concern is 88th this nigga can’t find his way home but living like this is the way he wants it…goin away for a day turns into a week then I get a few hours a day then its back home to 88th…I love him but I feel like he’s not in love with me…shit is good when u n my car but other than that u run back to where ur truly happy
